if u were to ask me how i feel now,
my answer would be..........
i duno.
i reali duno.
that feeling is so irritating, its keeps bothering me.
till the extend that, i dun feel like talking, dun feel like doing anything.
feel like tearing all the time, feel like vomiting.
feel like throwing everything aside, actually wanted to say feel like screaming too,
but actually not.
dun even bother to scream, keep sighing & staring at the blank.
thats wat happen to me these days!!
sick & tired of running round & round.
its like a dog running after its tail.
cannot go on lidat. i can die.


wait..... its time for me to get out of everything & seek God.
seek for his directions & most imptly, i need strength & hope.
no point stucking in the picture & gain nth, i am going out of this,
put my magnifying glass on God & its going to be ok.


God spoke to me yesterday.
abt Joy.
joy is not base on circumstances.
i wana take joy in wat i have .
e Joy of salvation, & also thanks giving.
difficult to give thanks, esp during this rough patch.
but God reali deserve all this mann =)


ok, frm this moment, joy muz replace watever that is in my heart.
i muz make a decision mann.
y make life so miserable when i noe the source of joy?
dumb me.


anyway.... ya
.convicted that miracles is coming.
God promiz me de.


i reali wana take this time to thank eelee.
thou she said that she didnt help much... but i reali think she do.
she is someone that i enjoy talking to, & i also enjoy listening to her. haha
thanks mann for being a listener & also encourager..
& mayb messanger to my cg.LoL.


another one will be.... of coz its God himself.
when i come to tik abt it.
actually God reali looks highly on me.
actually i am a lousy person.
& He use me so much.
reali lar, i am the one that ask God to prune me de, & its pruning time !
i should rejoice =)
after all these, i am sure, i am one step closer to be more like Jesus.


Phoebe & da cindy.
ur smses reali touches me.
duno wat to say, but thanks. =)


juz wana end off by saying that its not the end of the world.
even if i lost everything, i still have God.
God!! i will allow u to come into my life & do watever u want!
ya i said it.. so i cannot complain when u reali do so...


JOY !!! =)